I Think Im Done With It

We all have those days. Our lives recycle around in circles and we cannot find the correct place to stop and land. Each morning we wake up we can begin a new challenge. I have troubles of my own. Not to say mine are worse than yours. But my will to live for another tomorrow may also be stronger than yours.
I tend to blame a great amount on my forgetfulness on the fact I cannot think straight. Is there a pill for that?
I need my daughter to go with me to my bank and help me move my funds. Yet at the moment I cannot pay any bills.
She's busy. She works heard to take care of her family. She has a partner that stands beside her and helps with the bills. She has a business that needs her.
Nobody NEEDS me. Perhaps that is my biggest worry. "Mom/Grandma" is old. Her house is paid for. What help could she possibly need?"
And yet my brain is conflicting where and what was I going to do next?
I miss being held. I miss the hugs and the kisses and those who might get up from the sofa and bring ME a coffee for a change. And yet life doesn't always come through with the same outcome.
hen I went through "THE CHANGE" I thought I was actually bleeding to death. All that blood everywhere. Yet this was simply another day in my life I had to just 'suck it up' To tell you things will get better is not something I can say. But we are women. We are strong. We have been knocked down and stepped on and left behind. We can fight for ourselves. Get out of that Dam bed and get to work and start another day. There are many others that have had it harder than you. I want it all to go back so I can hit the 'reset button' too.
Yet it doesn't work that way. Now, get up out of that chair and do something about it. Create the change YOU want made in your life!

And if I survive this day, perhaps you will see me checking in later.
Carla

NOT A GOOD IDEA TO END LIFE, THINGS CHANGE SO QUICKLY.
I WAS THINKING SIMILAR THOUGHTS SOME 20 YEARS AGO. i DIDN'T DO IT AND A FEW DAYS LATED i MET THIS AMAZING PERSON AND i WAS SO GLAD i WAS ALIVE.

"YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT'S COMING FOR YOU" Benjamin Button......

Well that's your choice, Im not going to tell you what to do, we'll all be dead one day, but why not stick around see how this whole life thing pans out

Just take one more day and see what happens.

Don't do it, please trust me.

I hope it gets better

Please don't