I Must Move On Without You

A friend of ours called today. She left a long message over the phone. She told me that I should look for you, especially when I wasn’t at home. She told me of a love affair that you started a year ago today. She said that you were so in love and that your relationship with me had gone astray. At first, I didn’t want to believe it. I tried so hard to find a way to prove her wrong. But, now that I have found that you are in his arms, I will let you go and find a way to move on. I was so faithful to you. I loved you more than life itself. I never thought that you could be so cruel. I thought that you left that part of you on the shelf. I thought that I meant something to you. I never dreamed that I would catch you in such a lie. I feel so lost and hurt now. I feel like a part of me has died. You know, when I first met you, you said that you were heart broken and sad. But, now I know that it was all an act. I should have known better than that. I should never have let you into my heart. I wish that I was more cautious and alert. Now I know that I will never trust you again. Never again will I feel this anger and hurt. I don’t know where we went wrong. I guess it’s too late to wonder now. But, I want you to know that I will be fine. I will get by on my own, somehow. Even after all I have done for you. You felt you had to lie and cheat. Don’t touch me, don’t even look at me. This relationship is one that I will never repeat. But, before I walk out this door, I hope that in time you will understand that all I felt for you before today was so much more than I had ever planned. I never thought that I would come home today and find that our friend was right; that you had fallen out of love with me; that I was wrong and she was right.
I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to say. All I know is that I have banished you from my heart so that I will never have to feel this way. Please don’t ever come looking for me. Don’t think that you can win me back with your lies. This relationship of ours is now over. I could care less about the tears in your eyes. It’s so clear to me now that you were never really in love with me. I was just another lover in your collection. But, I will not be your next trophy. You really have no compassion. And now that we are through,
I thank God that I am on my own. Living my life without you.