I Value My Solitude

The concept behind the question is an intriguing one. I get terribly lonely. Sometimes I go out of the house just to be around people, in the shopping centre for example. But then I've had an active life, socially and sexually, but I've also always been comfortable with my own company. I sailed through the lock-down where others struggled. You see, I've always had lots of hobbies and enjoy creative writing and making things. I've been in swinging relationships, I've been in heavily sexual relationships. I've also been in almost sexless relationships, which admittedly I found a little boring but it was nice to have someone to share things with such as a pleasant walk along an open beach; listening to the surf breaking and feeling the sun beating down on your skin. That's what I miss the most I think, well that and the sex of course. That's not to say I don't still enjoy sex, of course, I do, occasionally... too occasionally, if I'm honest. But it's not just a case of meeting someone, that's still reasonably easy. Meeting someone on the same wavelength... that's bloody hard. And as I advance in years I find that is the thing that's hardest to reconcile with. Largely during the summer, but also around Christmas. I bloody hate Christmas now, lol. I'm not completely isolated, I have a loving family and I'm quite comfortable with long stretches of solitude. But as someone said above with which I entirely concur, it's not just being with someone, it's about being with the right someone. Covid has a lot to answer for...