I Will Write A Letter I Will Not Send
Hello, everyone. I found an entire notebook filled with unsent letters to the person I once loved. I just want to post one of the letter in the notebook around here. I need to get it off my chest. I was shocked when I read this. So, yeah... This is the letter.
Dear ________,
Alas, my love, though I have said so many times I that I would forget you, I never did. T'was love that struck my heart. I said to myself countless of times that I would forget you. Alas, there was never a day that I had not thought of you. To this day, I had thought of you day by day. Why does it torment me to always long for your presence. I thought I would eventually forget, but I had not. Wherever I go, I had always wished and prayed that one day I would see and talk to you again. It is an impossible dream indeed. I still pray for you no matter how many times I said to myself that I no longer love you. By July 4, it would be the anniversary of your departure. Where I stand till then is unknown. I do not know it myself if I am truly in love. Lord help me. I miss my long hair, though with this short hair, I remember the day I first talked to you like a friend. You may not know my name, but this I say to you (or at least hope to say), I loved you. Lord knows I prayed for your well-being. I need not say that I was not always like this girl. Before I fell for you, I was.... different. I cared for no one. Sad to say, this is true. I may say and do that I care, but it was never in my will. It was like an obligation. I was suicidal and easy to anger. I lie so often. I never even believed in myself. Then... there was you... Change began soon after. Life is confusing. Believe me. If you are before me right now, I personally think that you would simply say "I'm glad that I helped you." That's it. and I'm well-prepared for it. I forgot to mention this, as I had always prayed for you, I also prayed that you would find your wife, your better half. It would be my joy if you were to find your wife soon. I hope you'll get married and settle down to have kids to pass down that surname of yours. That God blessed girl. Lord knows she's for you. Lord knows when He'll give you your bride. I'm sure your son would have your dark black hair like the darkness of a new moon night, your smile that shows our teeth that is as white as the rarest pearl of the ocean, and your voice that is as sweet as the music f the angels. That is if God would grant you a son. Still. I'll pray for it, sweet love. Tomorrow will bring good cheer to you. I shall love you continuously, though I do not know if I'll continue romantically.
I omitted the parts where I mentioned the name for the sake of anonymity. Anyways, good day to all of you.
Dear ________,
Alas, my love, though I have said so many times I that I would forget you, I never did. T'was love that struck my heart. I said to myself countless of times that I would forget you. Alas, there was never a day that I had not thought of you. To this day, I had thought of you day by day. Why does it torment me to always long for your presence. I thought I would eventually forget, but I had not. Wherever I go, I had always wished and prayed that one day I would see and talk to you again. It is an impossible dream indeed. I still pray for you no matter how many times I said to myself that I no longer love you. By July 4, it would be the anniversary of your departure. Where I stand till then is unknown. I do not know it myself if I am truly in love. Lord help me. I miss my long hair, though with this short hair, I remember the day I first talked to you like a friend. You may not know my name, but this I say to you (or at least hope to say), I loved you. Lord knows I prayed for your well-being. I need not say that I was not always like this girl. Before I fell for you, I was.... different. I cared for no one. Sad to say, this is true. I may say and do that I care, but it was never in my will. It was like an obligation. I was suicidal and easy to anger. I lie so often. I never even believed in myself. Then... there was you... Change began soon after. Life is confusing. Believe me. If you are before me right now, I personally think that you would simply say "I'm glad that I helped you." That's it. and I'm well-prepared for it. I forgot to mention this, as I had always prayed for you, I also prayed that you would find your wife, your better half. It would be my joy if you were to find your wife soon. I hope you'll get married and settle down to have kids to pass down that surname of yours. That God blessed girl. Lord knows she's for you. Lord knows when He'll give you your bride. I'm sure your son would have your dark black hair like the darkness of a new moon night, your smile that shows our teeth that is as white as the rarest pearl of the ocean, and your voice that is as sweet as the music f the angels. That is if God would grant you a son. Still. I'll pray for it, sweet love. Tomorrow will bring good cheer to you. I shall love you continuously, though I do not know if I'll continue romantically.
I omitted the parts where I mentioned the name for the sake of anonymity. Anyways, good day to all of you.
22-25, F
