Sorry to say this, but you sound like the child standing in front of the Christmas tree, afraid the the only thing they'll get are bricks and bags of shit.
The way you are listed makes me think you are a minor. You have your whole life in front of you. Once you are an adult, you can choose what you want in your life. There is not an adult, here or anywhere else, that hasn't had those thoughts.There are at least few that had fantasy childhoods but most were something they wouldn't want to go through again.
If you're being abused, report it. Otherwise, make plans, find out what you're going to need when you become an adult. Don't waste this time by complaining about how pointless life is. You haven't started yet. If life was a race, you would still be waiting to get to the start line.
Like I said before, unless you're abused, there is much more to life then you know.