I Just Need Someone to Talk to

I try not to moan and complain. I try not to be so negative but it just isn't that easy, I'm going to try be factual and not complain and moan. My brother is in prison, my mum and I have a strained relationship she blames me for a lot, I blame myself too, but I blame her aswell, I have a lot of conflict in my head. I have aspergers and bi-polar, it's all a bit much sometimes, I also have musculo-skeletal chronic pain syndrome, although I'm having further tests as it may be Complex Regional Pain Syndrome... In other words either way I'm always in pain and sometimes it's so bad I pass out... It gets old really quick, and considering I'm 18 it's quite hard to explain to my friends why I keep passing out... Some days I think I'm beautiful, and other days I look at myself and feel sick, like I want to smash the mirror... I don't know what my point is, but that's my life at the moment, and I'm still trying not to moan, I'm sure others have had it worse and are having worse times