I Have Family Issues
My father has some serious projection and personal issues. He projects his fears and bs onto my mother and I. Growing up he wouldn't let me play outside. When I was playing outside he would make me come back into the house for "time out". He wouldn't call it that but that pretty much what it was. Because of this I stopped going outside and just stayed in my room doing my own thing. To this day I spend 90% of my time in my room. My ability to function normally is crippled. By that I am like a caged animal, you can set a caged animal free but it wont survive in the wild. I am that caged animal in a sense.
Every aspect of my mothers daily life is controlled by him. He made her quit her job even. She can't even talk to her relatives on facebook without him going apeshit. She simply picks up some mail a neighbor dropped and he goes on a rant for hours. Every argument consists of him saying "I want a divorce" "without me you'd be on the trail doing heroin" "you dont have a job, you have no income, you have nothing". When I try to intervene he yells "tell your gaurd dog to back off". In his mind my mother is somehow telling me what to do as if im a robot.
My mother would divorce him but she's never been on her own. Shes been with him for a majority of her life. I would leave and never come back but I fear that her life may be in danger should I leave home. I have a brother but I can't rely on him to protect mother. After all hes the spitting image of our father. Apathetic and unreliable with these issues.
Growing up in such a environment I had some major emotional issues but I've mellowed out these last few years. Though multiple times ive had a few emotional breakdowns because of my father. Luckily things have calmed within the household. Well at least nothing will faze me all that much when I eventually leave home.
Every aspect of my mothers daily life is controlled by him. He made her quit her job even. She can't even talk to her relatives on facebook without him going apeshit. She simply picks up some mail a neighbor dropped and he goes on a rant for hours. Every argument consists of him saying "I want a divorce" "without me you'd be on the trail doing heroin" "you dont have a job, you have no income, you have nothing". When I try to intervene he yells "tell your gaurd dog to back off". In his mind my mother is somehow telling me what to do as if im a robot.
My mother would divorce him but she's never been on her own. Shes been with him for a majority of her life. I would leave and never come back but I fear that her life may be in danger should I leave home. I have a brother but I can't rely on him to protect mother. After all hes the spitting image of our father. Apathetic and unreliable with these issues.
Growing up in such a environment I had some major emotional issues but I've mellowed out these last few years. Though multiple times ive had a few emotional breakdowns because of my father. Luckily things have calmed within the household. Well at least nothing will faze me all that much when I eventually leave home.
