I Try To Save Others When I Cant Even Save Myself
S'group describes me.
People always ask for my help, and I help them. I ask myself for help, I try to go through the same steps as I do other people. I split myself into two that way its as if I'm talking to someone else, to try to help myself. It never works, it never gets past the third step. I've tried meditation, I've tried sleeping, I've tried venting, I've tried turning off my brain, but all of those are temporary fixes to a seemingly permanent problem. I feel as though I am the only person on the Earth. I feel like no one knows who, or what I am. I feel lost, hopeless, sad, angry. I feel like I've been betrayed, lied to, like no one cares about me, like I have no friends. Maybe that's me being a pu-ss-y, but Its how I feel. I shouldn't feel like this! I should be feeling the oppisite, I should be the happiest I can be, I should be able to just say fakku to all of my problems, my life is looking up, but yet looking down. I'm such an unappreciative jackass that I let the small, miniscule, insignificant speck of negative things in my life right now outshine all of the great, amazing things in my carefree life.
People always ask for my help, and I help them. I ask myself for help, I try to go through the same steps as I do other people. I split myself into two that way its as if I'm talking to someone else, to try to help myself. It never works, it never gets past the third step. I've tried meditation, I've tried sleeping, I've tried venting, I've tried turning off my brain, but all of those are temporary fixes to a seemingly permanent problem. I feel as though I am the only person on the Earth. I feel like no one knows who, or what I am. I feel lost, hopeless, sad, angry. I feel like I've been betrayed, lied to, like no one cares about me, like I have no friends. Maybe that's me being a pu-ss-y, but Its how I feel. I shouldn't feel like this! I should be feeling the oppisite, I should be the happiest I can be, I should be able to just say fakku to all of my problems, my life is looking up, but yet looking down. I'm such an unappreciative jackass that I let the small, miniscule, insignificant speck of negative things in my life right now outshine all of the great, amazing things in my carefree life.
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