I Was Once Infatuated With Someone
Out Of My League. Letter... For my friend and IDOL (term i usually call her),
I dont know when would i have the chance to let you read this letter and to tell you how i feel about you. just kidding^^ . Hasshhh. Damn, what should i do it would only take us two years and then we would be saying goodbyes to each other:'( I regret the things i have done. I regret that i wasn't good enough , and i wish that i did my best to become your classmate that time.(top class). Not until now.I find it hard to talk and do things normally with you. I wish that they (my friends) have never told me about you in the first place. And i wish that i have never introduced myself to you.Cause all things got a bit complicated. I even remember the huge smile on my face the first time we chatted on facebook. (how we met)
But it was actually a nightmare and unlucky of me since we met.It felt really akward. Cause you are really out of my league. Why is it so, well i dont know.. after that. Everything has changed. i have changed myself for you. So you would notice me.I strived hard in my studies. Like i wasn't used too. Alot of people notice that. I hope you did too. I topped my class for you. The lazy hopeless jerk became a determined person.. Are you my inspiration ? or i am just cruel when it comes to you? I often dream of you day by day. Stalk you move by move. Make friends with your friends. Look over for you. , anywhere. Come to school to early so we may have crossed each others path. Ask my friends(her friend too) on how well do you do. The things you like. Things you hate. Each time we passed by each other, you kept eyeing me. But i didnt look back so you wont notice, but when you turn around. I would look back to you again. I visit your profile (facebook) each day just to know how you are doing and what's new about you. After a year.
I am very happy that i am successful with my plan on getting on the same class with you. I wonder if you remember what happened the past 2 years(i was stalking you).I want you to forget about it. Lets pretend that its the first time we met each other, i dont want you to think of anything else.I dont want you to think about it( because i am planning of letting you go or forgetting my feelings for you). I dont want to ruin our friendship.I dont want my heart to hurt even more. You're out of my league. And i cant have you. I know i am not that good enough to make you happy.I would just pretend i never cared about you.Its driving me crazy.
Thanks to you i was given the meaning of every song. Thanks to you, i have finally learned to move on with my first love. I am still doing my best to move on with you even though it seems so hard :( Its hard because it not that easy to make the feeling go away with someone who gave you so much memories,(in my dreams).,Its hard to accept that you and i would never be together no matter how much i like you :(( and there is someone(not me) destined for you and only time will tell.And as your friend i want to be happy for you. i hope you would find the right person for you. The first person you would love is the person who would love you forever. I dont want that person to waste that chance to be with someone like you. I want him to know how much you're worth and how many hearts have been in so much pain just to have you.
I hope he would do everything to make you the happiest person in the world.and i dont want him to hurt you and break your heart beacuse thats the biggest mistake he would ever do in his life. Once again, I hope you would never forget me, and maybe after three years or more. we''ll meet each other again.
P.S. I love you i may not say it but you mean everything to me
Sincerly yours,
Friend
I dont know when would i have the chance to let you read this letter and to tell you how i feel about you. just kidding^^ . Hasshhh. Damn, what should i do it would only take us two years and then we would be saying goodbyes to each other:'( I regret the things i have done. I regret that i wasn't good enough , and i wish that i did my best to become your classmate that time.(top class). Not until now.I find it hard to talk and do things normally with you. I wish that they (my friends) have never told me about you in the first place. And i wish that i have never introduced myself to you.Cause all things got a bit complicated. I even remember the huge smile on my face the first time we chatted on facebook. (how we met)
But it was actually a nightmare and unlucky of me since we met.It felt really akward. Cause you are really out of my league. Why is it so, well i dont know.. after that. Everything has changed. i have changed myself for you. So you would notice me.I strived hard in my studies. Like i wasn't used too. Alot of people notice that. I hope you did too. I topped my class for you. The lazy hopeless jerk became a determined person.. Are you my inspiration ? or i am just cruel when it comes to you? I often dream of you day by day. Stalk you move by move. Make friends with your friends. Look over for you. , anywhere. Come to school to early so we may have crossed each others path. Ask my friends(her friend too) on how well do you do. The things you like. Things you hate. Each time we passed by each other, you kept eyeing me. But i didnt look back so you wont notice, but when you turn around. I would look back to you again. I visit your profile (facebook) each day just to know how you are doing and what's new about you. After a year.
I am very happy that i am successful with my plan on getting on the same class with you. I wonder if you remember what happened the past 2 years(i was stalking you).I want you to forget about it. Lets pretend that its the first time we met each other, i dont want you to think of anything else.I dont want you to think about it( because i am planning of letting you go or forgetting my feelings for you). I dont want to ruin our friendship.I dont want my heart to hurt even more. You're out of my league. And i cant have you. I know i am not that good enough to make you happy.I would just pretend i never cared about you.Its driving me crazy.
Thanks to you i was given the meaning of every song. Thanks to you, i have finally learned to move on with my first love. I am still doing my best to move on with you even though it seems so hard :( Its hard because it not that easy to make the feeling go away with someone who gave you so much memories,(in my dreams).,Its hard to accept that you and i would never be together no matter how much i like you :(( and there is someone(not me) destined for you and only time will tell.And as your friend i want to be happy for you. i hope you would find the right person for you. The first person you would love is the person who would love you forever. I dont want that person to waste that chance to be with someone like you. I want him to know how much you're worth and how many hearts have been in so much pain just to have you.
I hope he would do everything to make you the happiest person in the world.and i dont want him to hurt you and break your heart beacuse thats the biggest mistake he would ever do in his life. Once again, I hope you would never forget me, and maybe after three years or more. we''ll meet each other again.
P.S. I love you i may not say it but you mean everything to me
Sincerly yours,
Friend
26-30, F