I Want to Share My Story of My Life Right Now
Right About Now...... Before you read; there is no exaggeration in this story, just facts.
Right now I live in Maryland & Ive been here for 2-3 weeks. I just moved here from Illinois. Im 16, I dont have any friends here & most of my "friends" from back home probably have forgotten about me.
I recently registered at my new school "James Hubert Blake High" and so far I dont like my school counsolur or my school at all.
I live in a 3 bed room apartment with my "family" who all wish I wasnt here.
My mother is disrespectful & I hate her..
I pretty much stay in my room all day only leaving to go outside to go to the store or McDonalds. Which I eat almost everyday now.
I think I might be going crazy from boredom.
I dont see anything good happening in the near future.
Ive recently entered into my first writing contest, which I more than likely wont win.
I have confidence and self esteem issues.
I dont think Im hideous, but compared to a lot of girls, Im terribly ugly.
Im not completely sure what I want to do for a career.
I dont think I want to marry, considering I dont think anyone would ever want to marry me.
I terribly need a job.
My mother treats my like a slave.
I have identity issues. I feel like being me isnt good enough.
& lots more junk.
Some positive things are, I still have my writing, sense of humor, and hopefully my health, besides my eyes. My little sister broke my glasses a few weeks ago & I have really bad eye sight & she didnt get in the slighest bit of trouble. If the tables were turned I would of gotten yelled at & much more.
I have stopped doing a lot of the things I deemed as "fun" that others thought was posioning me. Like -
drinking, smoking cigarettes, partying, dating older guys, stealing, smoking weed, poping pills, hanging out with unfavorables, skipping school.
But, no one seems to appreciate it.
I appreciate it though.
Yeah, so pretty much yeah. Also, I have found a new relationship with God.
No one seems to notice though.
Im incredibly lonely and bored. I need some excitment in my life. I dont think Ill find that for awhile though.
Yep, what a life. This is definitely the life Ive dreamed of...
Right now I live in Maryland & Ive been here for 2-3 weeks. I just moved here from Illinois. Im 16, I dont have any friends here & most of my "friends" from back home probably have forgotten about me.
I recently registered at my new school "James Hubert Blake High" and so far I dont like my school counsolur or my school at all.
I live in a 3 bed room apartment with my "family" who all wish I wasnt here.
My mother is disrespectful & I hate her..
I pretty much stay in my room all day only leaving to go outside to go to the store or McDonalds. Which I eat almost everyday now.
I think I might be going crazy from boredom.
I dont see anything good happening in the near future.
Ive recently entered into my first writing contest, which I more than likely wont win.
I have confidence and self esteem issues.
I dont think Im hideous, but compared to a lot of girls, Im terribly ugly.
Im not completely sure what I want to do for a career.
I dont think I want to marry, considering I dont think anyone would ever want to marry me.
I terribly need a job.
My mother treats my like a slave.
I have identity issues. I feel like being me isnt good enough.
& lots more junk.
Some positive things are, I still have my writing, sense of humor, and hopefully my health, besides my eyes. My little sister broke my glasses a few weeks ago & I have really bad eye sight & she didnt get in the slighest bit of trouble. If the tables were turned I would of gotten yelled at & much more.
I have stopped doing a lot of the things I deemed as "fun" that others thought was posioning me. Like -
drinking, smoking cigarettes, partying, dating older guys, stealing, smoking weed, poping pills, hanging out with unfavorables, skipping school.
But, no one seems to appreciate it.
I appreciate it though.
Yeah, so pretty much yeah. Also, I have found a new relationship with God.
No one seems to notice though.
Im incredibly lonely and bored. I need some excitment in my life. I dont think Ill find that for awhile though.
Yep, what a life. This is definitely the life Ive dreamed of...
26-30, F