I Need to Get a Life

I fear that things just might get pretty boreing if I'm not learning from my mistakes or overcoming my past hurts and figuring out my mental illness...Once my scars heal what would be just as great of a mystery to solve? And stimulate me? Sure there are adventures to embark upon people to meet things to see, but will anything compare to my past relapse? And don't get me wrong I beg God to never let me suffer like that again, but I know I will, and I can only do better next time...But I need lifes greatest joys to come my way so that I can feel just as good as figuring out the healing process.