I Have a Brother

No.. see..I have this memory of when I first found out he was my brother. And it got replaced by this forced feeling that I came from hell. But I think to only focous on that is ridiculous because I loved him very much and he had roots in heaven and hell. I was the part that came from heaven Yet recently I just went through a very heavy brainwashing that I came from hell. It's very scarey because they can make the feeling of being the devil feel so farmilliar that I forget I was from heaven because my two brothers had some roots in hell. :/

So, you are not clear on that word?
Or...just a very strained metaphore?