I Really Want To Say This

i really dont know why i just feel so down for the last few or some days..i think its my world falling apart..i know it is but never knew it would be thaaaaat bad..like each time try to hold things together n move forward with them..they all just seem to go even crazy and upsetting..things arent falling in the way i wished for or tried to keep them as..i fix one n it causes the other to go wrong..most of ppl i love have drifted already n the others seem to go farther n farther...my haters are increasing..n m just grateful for those who decided to hold on inspite of my dumbness...i dont know where my life is going or what am i to do..i just wanna find happiness..some peace n the most important things to just fall in line
i just wanted to write it down somewhere n here it is..nothing else..i dont wanna expect anything from anyone..n still i do n thats the root cause of most of my pains ;(
n it has all taken its toll on me..i cant seem to concentrate on anything unless its extreme..i dont feel like talking to anyone (most of the ppl around me)..just two or three i feel i can face n talk or text to..