I Really Want To Say This

u know..u always try to hold the feelings in..the pain, the tears..whatever you feel n whatevr u dont wanna show others..just because they dont expect u to b that way..u have that reputation of a bold, fun girl or guy n something just swipes off that charm n u cant go back to ur original self, how hard u try..but u hold it all back..so that ppl dont change their way of thinking about u..u cant think of anything else except that one change n still u dont make it evident..but then comes a time when u cant take anymore..u just cant..u know ur gonna blast, ur head s gonna explode if u wait anymore, if u cry alone anymore..n how hard u try, it just comes out in the open..everyone comes to know n pities are dropped in..sympathetic behavior becomes the way of ppl treating u..all they say is dont worry n all...why does this happen? i just hate it when this happens.. just hate it from the deepest of my heart..ppl forget the old u n form an opinion that ur the one who needs care..n how hard u try , u just cant convince them ur okay or ur condition is not as bad as they think..u cant tell ppl that pitying u n talking about it wud not make u any happier,..its gonna make u evn more gloomy...i hate that situation..has happened with me some times..ppl not only sympathise u, but all the others associated with u..i hate when this happens n just wish it doesnt happen with anyone else