My fears pt1

One of my greatest fear is loosing my uncle. The fastest and easiest way to describe him would be. By saying he was a lot like Uncle Phil from The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air. He was the same way always caring and very smart. He has been like a father, a brother, and my best friend. He was the person I turned to when I got kicked out of my house at 13. He talked to me about what happened and told me to become a best man I could be. That I wanted to be better learn from people's mistakes, by observing what happens when they do the wrong thing. After seeing what happens don't follow their footsteps be prepared and better instead. Not only learn from the mistakes of others but the mistake my father has made and reflect how I was doing. Reflect on how my siblings reacted, what it made them afraid of. Understand that everything we do has consequences and if we are not willing to deal with them then don't do it. He has always been there for me. When I felt alone and sad he made me remember that I'm not alone that he is there to help. He called me out on things I was doing wrong. He was always there for me as I grew up. Then when my grandma who was the glue of the family passed you stepped up to the plate as the leader of the house. If anyone deserved respect it is you. You are the healer of our family, you are the wise one of our family, you are the one that makes us laugh. I know you need help too but I don't know how because you hide your feelings. You helped me grow up. You helped me through out all my life but I know the day when you pass will be the day I hurt the most in my life because I will lose, my father figure, my brother, my best friend, my mentor, and my uncle all at the same time. That is my biggest fear.