I Miss Him So Much It Hurts

Every night when I lay in bed, I think of him. When I wake, he is the first thought and the unstoppable image that keeps rewinding in my head.

I can't believe he has left me, I can't fathom the idea that I will no longer hear him whisper I love you in my ear. Where are those sturdy hands and fingers that wipe away my tears, hold and comfort me when I'm sad.

The day you closed your eyes and left this world behind, I fell right through and crashed to the ground.

Where are you Sergei?

How could you leave me, the last breath you took, your last heartbeat pulled me to the depth of despair. Our promises and dreams evaporate into thin air. I want to put both my hands on your face, nose to nose, look into your big blue eyes and whisper I love you. You left my heart in pieces scattered in the land of no return Without hope.

I'm now staring at nothing, how much longer will I keep drowning. There's no going back, now I'm left in limbo.

I will never forgive you!