I Alway Feel Ugly
I just gave myself a scare by looking at myself in the mirror a few minutes ago
So I finished watching a movie and I went to wash my face before I go to bed .The bathroom light normally flickers a few times before it switches on completely. So I pressed the switch and I looked into the mirror. I actually thought I saw a ghost and I screamed. The light was flickering so it was like one of the horror movie scenes. What I saw in the mirror was horrifying. My face was just so pale under the white light and I have dark brown eyes and it that moment it looked pitch black, my hair was all messy and I had dark circles under my eyes. My face looked like some cursed dolls, it was just so blank looking and I looked so lifeless. Since then I've been staring at myself in the mirror for a while. I look horrible, my eyes especially, I knew that I had dark eyes but when did my eyes become so tired looking. I always thought I had kinda Asian looking eyes but it just looks like my eyes are just drooping down. My pupils had like no reflection and it was like staring at a black circle.
All this time in my life I got insulted because people told me that their first impression of me was cold and unfriendly. When I was in kindergarten, one girl told me she was scared to talk to me on the first day because she thought I was a demon who was going to kill her.
Now I know why people think that way, it's because I look terrifying. Even as a baby my mom told me I was always staring at people into their eyes and she said it was really funny because when I did that people didn't ask about me and normally would get uncomfortable and leave. Well, time to add another thing to the list of things why I hate myself.
So I finished watching a movie and I went to wash my face before I go to bed .The bathroom light normally flickers a few times before it switches on completely. So I pressed the switch and I looked into the mirror. I actually thought I saw a ghost and I screamed. The light was flickering so it was like one of the horror movie scenes. What I saw in the mirror was horrifying. My face was just so pale under the white light and I have dark brown eyes and it that moment it looked pitch black, my hair was all messy and I had dark circles under my eyes. My face looked like some cursed dolls, it was just so blank looking and I looked so lifeless. Since then I've been staring at myself in the mirror for a while. I look horrible, my eyes especially, I knew that I had dark eyes but when did my eyes become so tired looking. I always thought I had kinda Asian looking eyes but it just looks like my eyes are just drooping down. My pupils had like no reflection and it was like staring at a black circle.
All this time in my life I got insulted because people told me that their first impression of me was cold and unfriendly. When I was in kindergarten, one girl told me she was scared to talk to me on the first day because she thought I was a demon who was going to kill her.
Now I know why people think that way, it's because I look terrifying. Even as a baby my mom told me I was always staring at people into their eyes and she said it was really funny because when I did that people didn't ask about me and normally would get uncomfortable and leave. Well, time to add another thing to the list of things why I hate myself.
22-25, M
