I Am Terrified
My four month old baby goes in to hospital tomorrow evening and she has her open heart surgery on Monday morning.
It needs to be done, she'll die without it, but it's so unbelievably scary. I just wish we could swap hearts so she could be well.
I'll be staying in a strange city, all by myself with her too. I can handle it, but my energy is drained, I feel like I could sleep for 12 hours. To put it in perspective, the nurse told me most babies like my daughter have to be continuously tube fed. My daughter is on no meds and has always just fed from the bottle. It's so exhausting and I never feel like I'm doing enough. I've got her to 12.5lbs with blood, sweat and tears and all the willpower I possess and I'm seriously in need of rest, which hopefully I might be able to get soon.
Ultimately, I've put everything into getting her big and strong and this will hopefully aid a swift recovery. Please, if you have a moment, send a little positivity our way.
It needs to be done, she'll die without it, but it's so unbelievably scary. I just wish we could swap hearts so she could be well.
I'll be staying in a strange city, all by myself with her too. I can handle it, but my energy is drained, I feel like I could sleep for 12 hours. To put it in perspective, the nurse told me most babies like my daughter have to be continuously tube fed. My daughter is on no meds and has always just fed from the bottle. It's so exhausting and I never feel like I'm doing enough. I've got her to 12.5lbs with blood, sweat and tears and all the willpower I possess and I'm seriously in need of rest, which hopefully I might be able to get soon.
Ultimately, I've put everything into getting her big and strong and this will hopefully aid a swift recovery. Please, if you have a moment, send a little positivity our way.
31-35, F
