I Miss the Bond I Had With My Cousin

Being replaced by someone is the most painful thing.I really miss my brother.When I was in pain he was always there for me.we were so close but now everything has changed.I was the first girl child in my family,I was so close to my cousin than my own brother. He was there for me when I felt low.The fights we had,those beautiful memories never die.Due to family conflict I was not able to contact him for the past 10 years,but there has never been a moment where I never missed him.I was aching for the moment to meet my bro.I finally met him in my sisters(one of my cousin) puberty function but he left soon so I was not able to talk to him.After my granny`s death our family reunited but after a point of time everything changes right.The bond we shared everything is gone.My younger sister is now kinda close to him,I feel neglected.I just don`t know how to react to it.It`s been 10 yrs there has been a lot of stuffs happening around,but even after being reunited I just can`t see someone else taking my place.I know having this feeling is kinda stupid but I can`t help it.He is my damn elder brother.I was his only sweet little sister.But now seeing with my younger one sharing the bond once I shared is painful.He is not even talking to me.Tears dwell in my eyes whenever i think about the happy moments.I don`t even know how to start a conversation with him.Facing my worst fears is like a living in a live nightmare.I got my brother back but not the way I expected.I miss u brother :( am I supposed to wait or just leave it the way it goes?