I Have Something to Say

There's a daddy holding his new born baby girl (maybe 2 months old?) sitting right next to me while waiting to be seen at the lab.

She was crying, and I just wanted to cry.

Ugh I need to get a grip.
These triggers aren't fading. Especially sitting in the same hospital where I lost Natalia and Sebastian.

I have been doing so well, but all of these issues with my insurer are making it difficult for me to cope.

The procedure I need Is covered, but the only doctor who performs this procedure in my state is not in my network.

I'm allowing myself to feel like the weight of the world is coming down on me, but only while I'm here. When I leave, as soon as I sit in my car I'm taking a deep breath and I will refocus on the present. I was told the approval process was long and detailed. But I have a deadline. If it's not approved by July 1st when I leave to Mexico. I'm going to go the cash route!