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Now if there's a smile on my face
It's only there trying to fool the public
But when it comes down to fooling you
Now honey that's quite a different subject

But don't let my glad expression
Give you the wrong impression
'Cause really I'm sad, sad, sad, oh I'm sadder than sad
Darling I'm hurtin and I want you so bad
Like a clown I appear to be glad ooh yeah

[Chorus]
Well they're some sad things known to man
But ain't too much sadder than
The tears of a clown when there's no one around
Oh yeah, baby baby,

Now if I appear to be carefree
It's only to camouflage my sadness
And honey to shield my pride I try
To cover this hurt with a show of gladness
But don't let my show convince you
That I've been happy since you
'Cause I need to go, oh I need you so
Look I'm hurt and I want you to know
For others I put on a show

[Chorus]

Just like Pagliacci did
I try to keep my surface hid
Smiling in the crowd I try
But in a lonely room I cry
The tears of a clown
When there's no one around, oh yeah, baby baby

Now if there's a smile on my face
Don't let my glad expression
Give you the wrong impression
Don't let this smile I wear
Make you think that I don't care
The tears of a clown
Yeah the tears of a clown
When there's no one around
Oh baby baby

My heart is like an open book- anyone who cares to read can know right where the sentiment lies. I'm not very good at putting on a false face anyway. I wish I were capable of hiding my true sentiments at times but my feelins always seem to bleed through even when I say nothing.

at times it would honestly be nice if my intentions and sentiments were not so transparent.

Anyone with ill intent knows just what to do any its frustrating.

My reality and the reality of many here I've talked to