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I’m feeling horrible. My cramps feel like the contractions I was having when I ended up on the hospital when I lost my twins.
They’re extremely bad this time- it has been this bad since Dec 2016
I’ve had a few bad periods since I lost my babies but this by far is something stronger.
I can literally feel my uterus contracting, if I rest my hand on my lower abdomen I can feel it getting harder and then slowly relaxing.

I’ve been trying to put it out of my mind so I slept, that’s all I did today. Slept and posted a little here.
I woke up took the kids to school came home fed and took mia out and even Mia slept with me. She laid her squishy little face on my lower belly to keep it warm, she didn’t move from my side except to eat and drink water.

I took my boys to practice around 5:30 and was home by 7

Hubby was moody but I gave him his space. I asked if he was on and if he could take Mia out and he snapped No.
so I put on my sweater, found my shoes and took her out. It’s not cold but it’s a little chilly and that intensified my pain a little.

I waddled inside and cleaned mia up and she went to bed with my hubby. I guess she knows he needs comforting too.


Anyways while I was out 2 guys were walking by. One of them stopped as I dumped out Mia’s poop to ask if he could pet her. He asked me Mia’s name and then asked mine and shook my hand.
We had a brief exchange regarding the English Bulldog breed and then they said that’s a beautiful dog thank you for letting us pet her and they started to walk away saying to each other “that was really a beautiful dog, and the other one responded - and a beautiful owner too”

That last part made me smile 😊 it was really unexpected
My hair is in a messy ponytail and I was dressed all frumpy so I was surprised lol 😂