I Know What I Need,want and Deserve In a Relationship

This weekend was tough. It usually is. It's nice to have weekends away from work to spend time together. What a crock. As always. I feel so empty. Robotic. There isn't anything that keeps me going. I feel like I am wasting away. Sometimes I know where I should be heading. Sometimes I don't. I feel disgusting. Unattractive. Pitiful. I need inspiration to dig myself out of this mess!