I Am a Teacher
I am currently teaching prechoolers (kids at KG3 to be specific). My first time to handle arabic students in an international school here in the middle east. I love kids( i really do) and it might sound dramatic but i really try my best that i could for them to learn something from me even if it means using my break time on some students who can't understand.
My story in that school started like i was in a labyrinth and there is no easy way out. Because i thought that the students has the background of the language (english) and i was surprised that in KG3 most them do not know the colors in english. Because most of them are non english speakers ( only 4 out of 19 students can converse to me in english and about half of them never went to school before) my teacher assistant, a hardworking yemeni woman sometimes translate the words into arabic for students who really cant follow (which is not permitted actually so i told my self that this is challenge and i will accept it. I was discussing everything in english and some of my students cant follow so i would sit with them one by one. I always make visual aids for my students because seeing their faces fascinated by what i made for our class really lifts up my heart and motivates me to do it more often.
After that, Most parents will complain directly to the owner without talking to me. I just let that pass. Weeks and months have past..then PTA meeting was announced last dec. 28 and some of the parents came to talk to me. I thought it would turn out ok but when we were back last january 1 after the weekend (since new years day is not celebrated in their culture) i was happy greeting everyone with a happy new year..and then i was called at the office. That i was compared to the other teachers (that my class is the weakest and i only give time to the amazing students and ignore the weak ones) and they dont like my attitude inside the classroom (i dont have any idea what that attitude is all about because i never yell and never hurt any of them) and then they also told me that i need my students to have a perfect score on the upcoming revisions (a preparation for their term exam) that hurt me big time. Because i know that is not true and i wasnt given a chance to explain nor defend myself. And also, a parent told my assistant that she will not spend her money for his son's education for a teacher like me.
Then, when i came back to the classroom, my assistant asked me "what!?" And then i told her some of the things because i am afraid that i would run out of time to discuss the lessons. I was cheering myself up..and i can feel that my assistant was hurt too with that..she was upset. I want to cry but i dont want to. So after that..i went home feeling like a total mess thinking if i have done something wrong? And my mom told me to just resign. Feeling attached to the kids..it is really not an easy thing to make. So on january 5, i made a resignation letter on my laptop and then i was thinking what should i do. I really dont want to quit but my mom said that if that always happen they will surely fire you.
The next day, i talked to my assistant about it and let her read my letter, she said that it is too early to give up. She said, No! And then she closed my laptop. Stop thinking about it.
Then after how many days, the complaints still goes on..i cant sleep..because my heart is with the kids and my assistant. I want to see the kids on their graduation but i cannot take the complaints anymore. And i felt that the owner of the school is not satisfied with what i do. My assistant told me that if i quit, they will think i am weak.
So i prayed, and then if i pass my resignation, and if they talked to me about it and felt like it is worth to take a shot again (like a fresh start) i will stay. But then when i hand it to her..she said nothing. Felt frustrated at the same time..that's it! Enough i have to render 1 month. I said i will not leave until everything is clear because it is the start of exam week.
Believe it or not..it hurts me now. And i start taking more pictures of them. And i will surely miss working with my assistant and my 19 students who made my every morning crazy but fun filled moments 😢😟😔
My story in that school started like i was in a labyrinth and there is no easy way out. Because i thought that the students has the background of the language (english) and i was surprised that in KG3 most them do not know the colors in english. Because most of them are non english speakers ( only 4 out of 19 students can converse to me in english and about half of them never went to school before) my teacher assistant, a hardworking yemeni woman sometimes translate the words into arabic for students who really cant follow (which is not permitted actually so i told my self that this is challenge and i will accept it. I was discussing everything in english and some of my students cant follow so i would sit with them one by one. I always make visual aids for my students because seeing their faces fascinated by what i made for our class really lifts up my heart and motivates me to do it more often.
After that, Most parents will complain directly to the owner without talking to me. I just let that pass. Weeks and months have past..then PTA meeting was announced last dec. 28 and some of the parents came to talk to me. I thought it would turn out ok but when we were back last january 1 after the weekend (since new years day is not celebrated in their culture) i was happy greeting everyone with a happy new year..and then i was called at the office. That i was compared to the other teachers (that my class is the weakest and i only give time to the amazing students and ignore the weak ones) and they dont like my attitude inside the classroom (i dont have any idea what that attitude is all about because i never yell and never hurt any of them) and then they also told me that i need my students to have a perfect score on the upcoming revisions (a preparation for their term exam) that hurt me big time. Because i know that is not true and i wasnt given a chance to explain nor defend myself. And also, a parent told my assistant that she will not spend her money for his son's education for a teacher like me.
Then, when i came back to the classroom, my assistant asked me "what!?" And then i told her some of the things because i am afraid that i would run out of time to discuss the lessons. I was cheering myself up..and i can feel that my assistant was hurt too with that..she was upset. I want to cry but i dont want to. So after that..i went home feeling like a total mess thinking if i have done something wrong? And my mom told me to just resign. Feeling attached to the kids..it is really not an easy thing to make. So on january 5, i made a resignation letter on my laptop and then i was thinking what should i do. I really dont want to quit but my mom said that if that always happen they will surely fire you.
The next day, i talked to my assistant about it and let her read my letter, she said that it is too early to give up. She said, No! And then she closed my laptop. Stop thinking about it.
Then after how many days, the complaints still goes on..i cant sleep..because my heart is with the kids and my assistant. I want to see the kids on their graduation but i cannot take the complaints anymore. And i felt that the owner of the school is not satisfied with what i do. My assistant told me that if i quit, they will think i am weak.
So i prayed, and then if i pass my resignation, and if they talked to me about it and felt like it is worth to take a shot again (like a fresh start) i will stay. But then when i hand it to her..she said nothing. Felt frustrated at the same time..that's it! Enough i have to render 1 month. I said i will not leave until everything is clear because it is the start of exam week.
Believe it or not..it hurts me now. And i start taking more pictures of them. And i will surely miss working with my assistant and my 19 students who made my every morning crazy but fun filled moments 😢😟😔
36-40, F
