I Have Avoidant Personality Disorder

It's not easy to talk with people about this side of you or your life that it's day after day there to sabotage your freedom, unsolved bc it's a part of your personality. It's a part of you but you know noone is gonna understand how deeply is suffocating you.
You want to find people who can understand you, but it's in vain.
I even find hard to talk openly about it here. And there are days that I need it a lot but maybe in this way I have the feeling that I can be "normal" here.