I Have Avoidant Personality Disorder

I didn't even know this was a thing up until like a few mins ago but reading everyones posts about it, I'm absolutely sure I have it to. the people I want most in my life, for whatever reason, I often send off body language that rejects them. and I hold on go the stupidest things for like literally months on end. I basicly am always hating how lonley k am while acting weird and awkward around everyone almost at times puroply. I have become.e aware of this though as I have gotten older, and have to make a conscious effort to be happy, scocil and open