I Am Not Over It

What is happening? I'm back to square 1... My mind is lost and I still believe that you're there. That I am back in my element with you listening to all the truths (lies) you told. I was your Repunzel. I never even liked fairy tails but you made me believe that they were beautiful. Look at me. I'm still stuck in this castle waiting for you. But it's been two years and I thought I was over it. All of it. Thought I was smart enough to push it away. Thought I was young and resilient enough not to care. To not be like all the other girls my age and wallow over this lost love. But you were my first love and they say that hits the hardest, leaves the deepest scars. All I did was stick a bandage over it. Telling myself not to tend to it because it needs to heal by itself. Be strong. Leave it alone. That bandage has finally fallen off. And I can see it forming. The scar? No. The wound. It never healed.