Death is forever. You can have a billion reasons to die but you only need one reason to live. I suggest you look deep inside yourself you are stronger than you think.
Your ancestors date back thousands of years hundreds of thousands. In the dark ages through plague and famine people survived and that line of people Some how some way found hope.
That hope lasted for millennia. Dig deep and find that basic human spirit. Meditate on the worst possible outcome imagine in your mind's eye the coldest darkest and loneliest place on earth.
Then imagine a single tiny candle burning bright in the darkness. That is your humanity that is your hope and faith. I hope that helps.
