The thing about mindfulness meditation is

Things will get worse before they get better. As I practice being more mindful, I've noticed a growing feeling of paranoia and even dread at random times during the day. Most likely, it's a bunch of bottled up shit from previous years. Especially since my typical coping mechanism would be to dissociate and disconnect from the pain

But, the difference this time is, I know I can handle it. I know I have the strength to endure it until it gets better, no matter how long that takes. Once you have found Peace, come depression, fear, or anxiety, none can overtake you. I truly believe that, and my tolerance has grown in regards to negativity as I gradually unveil the Peace of Self

There is a light at the end of the tunnel. And that light is within us. It is Us