I Want a Nose Job

I've always been really insecure about my big wide nose. I've been called "nigger nose" "pig" I used to walk in the room in middle school and multiple people would hold up their noses and snort at me and laugh.
Whenever I'm caught off guard in a photo from the side I lose my confidence
All of the models on instagram and social media have tiny perfect little noses and whenever I see someone like that I remember my big manly one. It seems like whenever I just embrace it as part of my face I see a picture of someone with one of those little perfect noses and I start hating on my own again. I can't afford/ don't think I ever would get nose surgery but it is always in the back of my mind..