I Believe In a Higher Power

If I am wrong about this, then I don't want to be right. I have come to believe in objective morality, right and wrong and that there is a higher power. No, I cannot prove this to you, anyone, or even myself. I have faith. I know it sounds cliche and ignorant and maybe it is just wishful thinking but I have to believe in something. I use to be an atheist and a relativist but it made me miserable and drove me to depression and nihilism. Believing gives me purpose. I am open minded and willing to listen to anybody's point of view. If I end up being wrong, I don't want to be right because being right would mean life is meaningless.