I Try To Not Be Biased
Bias, fear, and gratefulness-
“Things went my way. I’m alive! It’s a miracle, a greater power exists!”
This is truly a moment to be grateful. All of a sudden we feel as if we got saved from harm by milliseconds and we’re like, “Damn, that was close!”, as our heart is pounding. Absolutely a moment of gratefulness. Here is my thing though. I want this luck to happen to everyone. I don’t want anyone to get in a car wreck. I don’t want anyone to suffer or have a terminal disease. I don’t want anyone to be poor and homeless. I don’t want children in Africa to be born with sicknesses they have no control over. Yes, I’m lucky and I’m grateful. Yes I’m grateful from the bottom of my heart for all the people that mean the world to me and are healthy and well. But I want this luck to happen to everybody. I don’t want to be the biased person that just looks at things through my own lens, if things are going well for me, and ignoring everything else. Of course I am limited and I don’t know the mysteries of things I can’t even ponder, and I want to cultivate an attitude of humility and respect to all that I don’t know, but I feel this way. I don’t want it to be out of fear of greater pain that I go after anything. I want things to be truly genuine.
This is why I ask myself, “How do I treat someone with no power/influence, how do I treat someone who is possibly dangerous, how do I treat someone I am not afraid of, or don’t find appealing? How do I treat someone I can get absolutely nothing from?” If I run away from them which in the case of danger or extreme dissatisfaction I would, then is my allegiance to anything actually true? Is it real? Or is it just love for my own satisfaction and self-preservation making greater meaning obsolete? Why do I run from a dangerous person? Why do I go after what promises greater satisfaction now or in the long run? How did I not notice this selfishness when I was younger and now, why can’t I escape it?
“Things went my way. I’m alive! It’s a miracle, a greater power exists!”
This is truly a moment to be grateful. All of a sudden we feel as if we got saved from harm by milliseconds and we’re like, “Damn, that was close!”, as our heart is pounding. Absolutely a moment of gratefulness. Here is my thing though. I want this luck to happen to everyone. I don’t want anyone to get in a car wreck. I don’t want anyone to suffer or have a terminal disease. I don’t want anyone to be poor and homeless. I don’t want children in Africa to be born with sicknesses they have no control over. Yes, I’m lucky and I’m grateful. Yes I’m grateful from the bottom of my heart for all the people that mean the world to me and are healthy and well. But I want this luck to happen to everybody. I don’t want to be the biased person that just looks at things through my own lens, if things are going well for me, and ignoring everything else. Of course I am limited and I don’t know the mysteries of things I can’t even ponder, and I want to cultivate an attitude of humility and respect to all that I don’t know, but I feel this way. I don’t want it to be out of fear of greater pain that I go after anything. I want things to be truly genuine.
This is why I ask myself, “How do I treat someone with no power/influence, how do I treat someone who is possibly dangerous, how do I treat someone I am not afraid of, or don’t find appealing? How do I treat someone I can get absolutely nothing from?” If I run away from them which in the case of danger or extreme dissatisfaction I would, then is my allegiance to anything actually true? Is it real? Or is it just love for my own satisfaction and self-preservation making greater meaning obsolete? Why do I run from a dangerous person? Why do I go after what promises greater satisfaction now or in the long run? How did I not notice this selfishness when I was younger and now, why can’t I escape it?
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