I Am Broken

Why did depression have to come into me? I was a happy person during my first 2 or 3 years on this planet, I had health problems as a kid, it seemed to go from physical to mental as I got older, something is missing, I'm not entirely sure what but something big is missing in my life, for ages I held myself back in any kind of improvement, now I'm losing weight, I smile sometimes, I don't do nothing anymore. Yet I still feel broken overall, I might never be who I once was, but maybe I should keep trying, I am thankful for the few people I talk to, it does help a lot, still though, I just want it to be like the good old days again.