I Want My Old Job Back

@Fungirlmmm Thanks. I'm going through a lot and if this doesn't work then idk what I'll do but it's worth a shot I guess.

@justicexoxoxo if it doesnt then you find another CNA company and another and another until someone sees your value.

@Fungirlmmm I can't. It's a long story on why I can't get other jobs right now. I'm in a complicated situation. It's either this or I continue to look for more odd jobs. I already got scammed into doing an odd job for a supposed landscape company in 90 degree weather, and almost had a heat stroke, and went to home depot to get "more supplies" and was left there with no pay. It's just a lot right now.

@justicexoxoxo I'm so sorry.

@Fungirlmmm It's okay. I'm just at a loss for words. I never like to show my weak points but honestly I feel like breaking down. I caused most of my problems but this is just too much some times.

@justicexoxoxo we have to work our way through and wade through the crap to the good times. It makes us stronger and more compassionate toward others

@Fungirlmmm Yea but when am I going to see the good? It seems like all my efforts just get chalked up as life lessons because some way some how it goes left before it goes right. I'm usually not a negative person. I'm the type to always see it from a perspective where there's always a silver lining to everything. At the same time, it's just as strong as I know I am, I'm still human and the human side of me wants to just break down. A part of knows I have to suck it up and keep going, which I probably will but I've been struggling in similar ways for a very long time and out of all the bad, I can't really tell you too many good moments I've had through the bad and that's kind of pathetic.

@justicexoxoxo that is sad, especially at your young age. I'm so sorry.

@Fungirlmmm Please don't be sorry. It sucks because my mom even tells me all the time she sees that I make effort and still bad things happen to me or I get the short end of the stick. It's very tiring. Yea, it is sad that at my age I'm talking like this. I sound like a middle aged man going through a mid life crisis or something. I just hate feeling like I'm wasting my youth away.

@justicexoxoxo Then dont. Find a cougar and play. ;)

@Fungirlmmm I wish. I've been single for a long time and women seem to not find me desirable to date, let alone be friends with me. I'm not weird, socially awkward, or bad looking at least in my own opinion. I'm not like super insecure about myself surprisingly but I don't really blame women for not wanting to associate with me. If I was a woman I probably wouldn't. Even when women don't know my situation, I think I still project my situation around people through body language and the vibe which is why even if you met me you'd wonder why I'm single, (not to sound arrogant) but women don't want to be around a guy who isn't all together and I guess I try to pretend I am in public and people probably see right through the front.