I Am Scared of Falling In Love
But Always Do, Anyway......
I am hesitant to write this story...I know it will probably hurt my lover. I have lost all faith in love. All. It seems I am a very bad judge of character. Every single time I put my heart out there, I tend to ignore red flags in the relationship. There has been a humongous red flag glaring at me for two days. I will not go into details..but suffice it to say that I am questioning whether we should even be together at all. My thoughts keep returning to the old addage, "if something seems to good to be true, it probably is". That has always stood me in good stead...and I am loathe to apply it to this situation. I want so badly to believe...believe it actually IS true. I am trying to ignore my instincts and give the benefit of the doubt. Doubt...that is such an appropriate word....for it is where I live now....all I seem to have are doubts....and I have no clue what will happen now......
I am hesitant to write this story...I know it will probably hurt my lover. I have lost all faith in love. All. It seems I am a very bad judge of character. Every single time I put my heart out there, I tend to ignore red flags in the relationship. There has been a humongous red flag glaring at me for two days. I will not go into details..but suffice it to say that I am questioning whether we should even be together at all. My thoughts keep returning to the old addage, "if something seems to good to be true, it probably is". That has always stood me in good stead...and I am loathe to apply it to this situation. I want so badly to believe...believe it actually IS true. I am trying to ignore my instincts and give the benefit of the doubt. Doubt...that is such an appropriate word....for it is where I live now....all I seem to have are doubts....and I have no clue what will happen now......
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