I Want to Share Something
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[u]What Scares Me The Most[/u][/b]
[i]No, I'm not afraid of monsters under my bed.
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When I look at people I try to see the good. When people call themselves ugly it upsets me. No one is ugly because everyone is beautiful in their own way. Every single person on this Earth has qualities that make them unique. Everyone has so much to offer this world. I want to help people see this, but how can I when I don't feel the same about myself? This is an issue I've struggled with for many years, and it frightens me.
Usually the typical things that scare people the most are spiders, snakes, and the dark - but I'm frightened at the thought of never loving myself.
When I look at myself in the mirror I only see the flaws. My forehead it too big, my teeth aren't perfect, my hair isn't pretty, I need to be thinner... I could go on and on.
I always hear people say, "before anyone can love you, you must first love yourself," and I can't help but cringe. What if I never love myself? Will I be alone? If I can't find a way to see the good in myself, how on Earth could someone else?
I feel bad for not loving myself. People are constantly trying to cheer me up by giving me compliments, but they never work. Lately I've been told I am a very good writer. Do I believe them? No. Do I want too? Yes. I've also been told I bring cheer and happiness to those around. But what do I feel? I feel annoying and like a hassle. It's like I'm the devil's advocate for myself. A person says something good about me and I can't help but think the exact opposite.
It's so frustrating to not love a single aspect about yourself. I know I should. I know not everyone hates me and that some do like my company, but I can't get myself to feel this. I don't feel what people tell me, instead I deny it.
I want so badly to love myself. I want it more than anything. I would love to wake up in the morning knowing that I'm this wonderful person who is beautiful. I want to look in the mirror and see beauty. I want to think of myself as someone who deserves respect and love. But I can't. At least not now.
I guess people are right when they say we want most what we can't have.
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- [b][c=#BF0080]Jade Pint[/c][/b]/theodysseyonline.com
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[b]
[u]What Scares Me The Most[/u][/b]
[i]No, I'm not afraid of monsters under my bed.
[/i]
When I look at people I try to see the good. When people call themselves ugly it upsets me. No one is ugly because everyone is beautiful in their own way. Every single person on this Earth has qualities that make them unique. Everyone has so much to offer this world. I want to help people see this, but how can I when I don't feel the same about myself? This is an issue I've struggled with for many years, and it frightens me.
Usually the typical things that scare people the most are spiders, snakes, and the dark - but I'm frightened at the thought of never loving myself.
When I look at myself in the mirror I only see the flaws. My forehead it too big, my teeth aren't perfect, my hair isn't pretty, I need to be thinner... I could go on and on.
I always hear people say, "before anyone can love you, you must first love yourself," and I can't help but cringe. What if I never love myself? Will I be alone? If I can't find a way to see the good in myself, how on Earth could someone else?
I feel bad for not loving myself. People are constantly trying to cheer me up by giving me compliments, but they never work. Lately I've been told I am a very good writer. Do I believe them? No. Do I want too? Yes. I've also been told I bring cheer and happiness to those around. But what do I feel? I feel annoying and like a hassle. It's like I'm the devil's advocate for myself. A person says something good about me and I can't help but think the exact opposite.
It's so frustrating to not love a single aspect about yourself. I know I should. I know not everyone hates me and that some do like my company, but I can't get myself to feel this. I don't feel what people tell me, instead I deny it.
I want so badly to love myself. I want it more than anything. I would love to wake up in the morning knowing that I'm this wonderful person who is beautiful. I want to look in the mirror and see beauty. I want to think of myself as someone who deserves respect and love. But I can't. At least not now.
I guess people are right when they say we want most what we can't have.
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- [b][c=#BF0080]Jade Pint[/c][/b]/theodysseyonline.com
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