I Don't Drive, and I Don't Want to

its not that I don't want to,but basically,years ago when I was learning to drive, I was doing great,and enjoyed it. but I started having seizures,and had one while at the wheel one day.I was driving down this road, and, don't know what happened next, all I remember was noticing that my foot was flat on the accelerator, and the car was going so fast!! my brother was in the passenger seat shouting "SLOW DOWN, SLOW DOWN"!! I panicked as another car came in the opposite direction ( the car had strayed over to the other side of the road)!! I just managed to swerve out the way of the oncoming car, my car went up the embankment at the side of the road,and the car almost overturned!! shortly after that, I was diagnosed with Epilepsy. ever since then, my confidence has been "F**KED" and even though my epilepsy is now controlled,when I think of learning again, I just get flashbacks to that time!!now don't get me wrong, I live in a town with good public transport,but it just gets me down when people bring up the subject of me not driving and I need to learn to drive,and I find it difficult to talk about, cos I don't want people to think that im just looking for the sympathy vote, by bringing up all that happened cos of my epilepsy years ago!!