I spoke too soon about being happy today , I should have realised it wasn’t going to last , I didn’t go for a run as I felt too lazy , my dad had a massive go at Me tonight and part of it was because I gave him advice on sitting up straight to help reduce his back pain I was trying to help then he threatened to hit me. And we have been aurging all night as I felt depressed straight after he had ago at me then I felt sucidal again. I might phone up Adam if he answers and is willing to talk to me and try see if he lets me stay in his in greenhouse in his friends garden for abit so I can get a break away from my dad. Hopefully Adam will understand and take my side. I will take some clothes with me and tooth brush and keep money in my bra or Pants as I think he might have taken the last lot when I first slept in there with him, that way my money will be safe and he can’t get it out of my bra or pants without waking me up. I could always buy food whilst I’m down there , just need a bus ticket. He lives four hours away from me. Got to go back to the seaside town we’re I met lee. If the police are called then I don’t think they will find straight away if I’m not local. Its not safe on the streets and no other friend will let me stay at their place , so Adam is my last hope. I just hope he doesn’t let me down.