I Want to Run Away Far Far Away

and I think i might. Every few months my brain keeps bringing me back to ... i want to be single. I’ve been with my boyfriend for 7 years now. He’s great. We make a great team, but something is just never right to me. I’ve been waiting for... for what? A change? The right time? I wanted to give him ample time to change. I mean, he’s by best friend. I love him. I’ve tried to leave countless times and each time i am convinced to stay. He begs me. He uses every card in the book to make me stay and i always do. I opened my heart (and my diary) to my very close friends and it brought them to tears that i feel the way that i feel. They offered me a sanctuary back where I’m from. I love my new state so much, but to move home would mean i would be near friends and my sick father. I would have a support system other then just the person keeping me down. In order to really leave this time, i am going to load up my car while he is at work and just leave. He will be devastated. But i know that if i tell him, he will convince me to stay.