I Feel I Am Annoying
I'm in a discord group, and there happens to be this particular channel where users are allowed to and vent as much as they want. The thing is, I think I post there too much. I'm always talking about my internet addiction and my worries over my grades. It used to be that people offered support, but now I guess people just ignore me on there. I must sound like some monotone idiot.
There was once another user on the server who did the same thing as me (only he talked about his insecurities over his looks and being an "incel"), and we always talk about how annoying he was. The thing is, I'm really afraid that the people on the server view me in the same light. I can easily imagine the comparisons they probably make behind my back, including the fact that the person before me shared a similar ethnic background as me. But that has nothing much to do with my issue, anyways. Main point here is that I feel like everyone thinks I'm an idiot who complains too much like the guy we make fun of sometimes.
To be honest, I really don't understand how other people keep their feelings to themselves. I never understood how "positivity" works. It seems like people of every national and cultural background knows when too much is annoying, everyone in the world except me. Am I just emotionally immature? How do humans not worry about little things and move on? EVERYONE seems to understand this except me. Am I painfully unintelligent? That's what it seems like. I never understood how everybody else can come to that exact same conclusion except me. I just feel not normal.
There was once another user on the server who did the same thing as me (only he talked about his insecurities over his looks and being an "incel"), and we always talk about how annoying he was. The thing is, I'm really afraid that the people on the server view me in the same light. I can easily imagine the comparisons they probably make behind my back, including the fact that the person before me shared a similar ethnic background as me. But that has nothing much to do with my issue, anyways. Main point here is that I feel like everyone thinks I'm an idiot who complains too much like the guy we make fun of sometimes.
To be honest, I really don't understand how other people keep their feelings to themselves. I never understood how "positivity" works. It seems like people of every national and cultural background knows when too much is annoying, everyone in the world except me. Am I just emotionally immature? How do humans not worry about little things and move on? EVERYONE seems to understand this except me. Am I painfully unintelligent? That's what it seems like. I never understood how everybody else can come to that exact same conclusion except me. I just feel not normal.
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