I Really Hate Crying In Front Of Others

I used to be proud of crying. My girlfriend told me it was okay to cry, and I believed her. After we broke up though, I just started hating it all over again. Those tears were signs of weakness and pain and vulnerability.

I try to hold in my tears as much as I could, but sometimes things just get too hard and I let it all out. That would be okay for any normal person, but I'm constantly crying about the stupidest things. I cry about the homework I procrastinated on. I cry about others being sad and hopeless. I cry when I hear sad songs. I cry when people call me a dumbass or a jackass or a fatass or any other kind ass. I'm a crybaby.

You know, my ex called me a baby once. I thought she was joking and laughed, but when she showed no signs of joking, I stopped laughing. I pressed further and she never took it back. I guess I really am a baby.