I Am Sick of Being Single

So I have taken steps today to move towards a better, more fulfilling life. It became apparent to me that I have been feeling overwhelmed with feelings of loneliness and frustration. I thought that I needed to lighten my load, so gave up my volunteer position that took eight hours of my day. I never stopped to think about what really changed in my life. I made a choice back in the summer to get a two bedroom place with a family member of mine that I had reconnected with after 28 years. I walked away from two months rent and paid last months rent for both of us and my share of first month rent for the new place. I furnished it and provided everything we needed. My family member is 42 years old, and enrolled in school. I was in a position to pay the bills and all the extras. It was a gesture of kindness and generosity on my part. Fast forward to the present, and those acts became expectations of my family member. I welcomed her friends in our home with politeness and respect. She always scrutinized my guests and created an unwelcoming atmosphere.She quit school after a month of very horrible attendance. It has become very clear recently that this is what I needed to cut out of my life, and not my volunteer position. I have become very lonely and depressed since the summer, I never stopped to think about this, cause logically, I should not have felt lonely having a family member live with me.
Now that I see my choices have lead me to feelings of resentment and powerlessness I have taken steps to rectify my situation by putting myself first. I have managed to get out of my lease and walk away free and clear at the end of February. I have liquidated most of my valuables and now have the resources in my pocket to find my own place and my own space. If I don't have respect for myself, why would anyone else? If I don't show myself love why would anyone else show me love? I think that I have found the answer to my burning question, "What is wrong with me?"

Tomorrow will be a better day and I will be one more day closer to finding myself once again.