I Love You

So laying there in the darkness of night close to the one you love. You feel safe and warm. At this time of night you usually lay there and talk for hours upon hours, trying not to laugh loud as you would wake the whole house, but usually not succeeding as he makes you laugh so hard. These hours are my favorite, but this time the subject isn't something you should laugh at. This time it is serious, something that has put a darkness over the one you love for years. It's something that smacked him to the bottom, laying there with no energy to even try to continue but at the same time having to. Something that made him lose the meaning of life and slowly having to put together who you are and the purpose of life. This is not something you easily get over and although it was 5 years ago at this point you still can feel the hesitation when he tells you about this, you can hear the pain and the many troubled years.
What he tells you almost makes you cry solely by the fact that you somehow feel his pain. You love him so much and seeing him in this state, even thinking about him having to go through all that is unbearable. You lay there, hug him tighter, tell him sorry and shed a tear. What can you do, nothing. You so badly want to take away the hurt and the past that haunts him but you have no idea what to do. All you feel is that you are powerless to the situation.