I Am Lonley and Sad Often
It has been nearly five years since I tried to kill myself. I don’t know whether I’ve gotten any better, if I’m honest.
Ever since I did that... it was almost like I started to miss the things I never had. I craved intimacy. Between friendship and romance. I believe a part of me hoped that was the reason I held a hole inside, just an absolute loneliness.
I’ve tried so hard to comply to my desires. I’ve tried so hard to be a friend... but I’m not sure I know how to be.
I feel like I’m under water... but the sense of peace that it once gave me has shifted into absolute fear.
Ever since I did that... it was almost like I started to miss the things I never had. I craved intimacy. Between friendship and romance. I believe a part of me hoped that was the reason I held a hole inside, just an absolute loneliness.
I’ve tried so hard to comply to my desires. I’ve tried so hard to be a friend... but I’m not sure I know how to be.
I feel like I’m under water... but the sense of peace that it once gave me has shifted into absolute fear.
