I'm Not Perfect
Boredom and loneliness drive us to do drastic things. Things that can sometimes be amusing or things that can destroy the lives of those surrounding us. Funny that, I know. To feel lonely when you are always in touch with everyone. How does that happen anyway? Why does it happen? Why do we feel like we are all alone even when we are surrounded by people who love us? And why can’t we love them back with the same intensity?
Actually you know what, I know what’s wrong. I KNOW why I am all alone even when I have people all around me and internet to keep me connected with those who are not. It’s because the thoughts don’t match. It's because they all want something else from life and I want....well I don't really know what I want. And they want me to achieve somethings in life that I am not so sure that I want to.
So there. I said it. I am completely clueless as to what I want. I know I am supposed to be grateful for all the things that I have, but I am not. I am sorry.
But I know what I don't want. And I know what I need. I need some change. I need some stability. I am really fed up with this erratic life and lifestyle that I have been living for months now. I just need some peace.
Actually you know what, I know what’s wrong. I KNOW why I am all alone even when I have people all around me and internet to keep me connected with those who are not. It’s because the thoughts don’t match. It's because they all want something else from life and I want....well I don't really know what I want. And they want me to achieve somethings in life that I am not so sure that I want to.
So there. I said it. I am completely clueless as to what I want. I know I am supposed to be grateful for all the things that I have, but I am not. I am sorry.
But I know what I don't want. And I know what I need. I need some change. I need some stability. I am really fed up with this erratic life and lifestyle that I have been living for months now. I just need some peace.
26-30, F
