I Hate Feeling Like My Heart Is Breaking

Loosing My Better Half

Horriblness of what I've done is sinking in,
The consequences of my actions have yet to be told,
My soul feels shattered and I feel as if I have no hope,
No chance.
I've been here before and I never win,
All I can hope for is that he is different,
He gets me more than anyone else has.

God do I miss him today after giving him a break to breathe and think.
I ache after all the hurt,
All the pain I have made.
All I ask is that he feels I am worth all my craziness,
I want him back.
I can feel him slipping away and I feel myself cracking,
Crumbling,
I can almost feel him love for me draining away after all my horriedness.
I can dream,
I can hope,
But in the end I don't know if he will choose to stay or go.