What do you mean usually when you say commitment?
See I don't know that I'm right but I've been somewhat annoyed because I know that a lot of the time when peoople discover i'm interested in them but also with my partner and am straight with them about it's often " I could never do that " and I mean that's fine. I'm not upset about that I mean polyamory is not for everyone just as monogamy isn't for everyone
but it seems like the rituals of monogamy are so painfully normal that if I don't want kids and am resistant to the concept of Marriage I'm labeled commitment phobic on those grounds alone.
And yet I have approached and expresses interest in a good half dozen or more at this point and gotten the same responses each time like "That's nice, I could never do that.."
and I mean I guess we'd be golden if I could leave partner to be with them but I'm set.
right where i'm at.
I would never even be able to forgive myself for leaving her to be with someone else..
there are so many people I cannot be with because of her,
mum pushed to replace my bed since the bedframe broke but I told her I just want to keep using my mattress as futon because I don't want to shell out to replace it.
we're trying to put new curtains up to filter the light coming in out too to reduce AC use and our power bills during the summer months.
All these things as well as sending toys off to Amazon etc all of it's...
it's all her...
And I'm so... weak at the knees about everything that that silly paramore the only exception song makes me weepy once it hits the bridge....
I guess it's just: Watashi Wa Wakarimasen.
I do not understand.
I don't know what people mean by "commitment" but I sus that people have narrowed the definition down to only Fidelity and Childrearing, and that bugs me, because neither of those things are how I show my dedication..
I make sacrifices...
but it seems like the rituals of monogamy are so painfully normal that if I don't want kids and am resistant to the concept of Marriage I'm labeled commitment phobic on those grounds alone.
And yet I have approached and expresses interest in a good half dozen or more at this point and gotten the same responses each time like "That's nice, I could never do that.."
and I mean I guess we'd be golden if I could leave partner to be with them but I'm set.
right where i'm at.
I would never even be able to forgive myself for leaving her to be with someone else..
there are so many people I cannot be with because of her,
mum pushed to replace my bed since the bedframe broke but I told her I just want to keep using my mattress as futon because I don't want to shell out to replace it.
we're trying to put new curtains up to filter the light coming in out too to reduce AC use and our power bills during the summer months.
All these things as well as sending toys off to Amazon etc all of it's...
it's all her...
And I'm so... weak at the knees about everything that that silly paramore the only exception song makes me weepy once it hits the bridge....
I guess it's just: Watashi Wa Wakarimasen.
I do not understand.
I don't know what people mean by "commitment" but I sus that people have narrowed the definition down to only Fidelity and Childrearing, and that bugs me, because neither of those things are how I show my dedication..
I make sacrifices...
