I Just Want To Share This
I don't need judgement I just wanted to share my experience.
I have an ex-boyfriend, we've been in relationship for 3 years, at the beginning of the relationship I didn't know that his a married man. It's just after a year that I find out. After finding out the truth, I leave him immediately.
But deep in my heart I know that I love him, after 3 months, we got communication again.
I've tried my hard and my best to avoid him. But I know and I cannot deny that I still love him.
I try to be casual and be formal as a friend but feelings never lie, he still love me and I feel the same. We continue this forbidden love.
At first I feel so happy that we're back together but as months passed by reality struck that I cannot be truly happy with him as we are hurting innocent people.
I asked for break up and we should stop what we are doing, because at that moment we even planned to live together. But my mind is so powerful over my heart.
I leave him, hurt him so he can hate me and never ever think of me anymore.
It really hurts but what can I do, i cannot do a wrong thing, it's not me, it is not the way I am.
Yes I still love him, that's undeniable but I cannot do the wrong thing. I cannot hurt another woman and destroyed someone else's family.
It really hurts me and gives me hard time. But I rather be the one who is suffering than his wife and kid.
It's really hard to move on because I still love him no matter what. But I can't just choose the wrong just because I love someone. I will still choose to be hurt than do the wrong thing.
I have an ex-boyfriend, we've been in relationship for 3 years, at the beginning of the relationship I didn't know that his a married man. It's just after a year that I find out. After finding out the truth, I leave him immediately.
But deep in my heart I know that I love him, after 3 months, we got communication again.
I've tried my hard and my best to avoid him. But I know and I cannot deny that I still love him.
I try to be casual and be formal as a friend but feelings never lie, he still love me and I feel the same. We continue this forbidden love.
At first I feel so happy that we're back together but as months passed by reality struck that I cannot be truly happy with him as we are hurting innocent people.
I asked for break up and we should stop what we are doing, because at that moment we even planned to live together. But my mind is so powerful over my heart.
I leave him, hurt him so he can hate me and never ever think of me anymore.
It really hurts but what can I do, i cannot do a wrong thing, it's not me, it is not the way I am.
Yes I still love him, that's undeniable but I cannot do the wrong thing. I cannot hurt another woman and destroyed someone else's family.
It really hurts me and gives me hard time. But I rather be the one who is suffering than his wife and kid.
It's really hard to move on because I still love him no matter what. But I can't just choose the wrong just because I love someone. I will still choose to be hurt than do the wrong thing.
31-35, F
