I Feel Strange
I feel as though the root of my depression and my sadness is not entirely me but something else. I feel like their I something in me something dark like a presence that is keeping me from being happy. Like the things I'd normally do to cheer myself up wouldn't make things better or I'd do or say something that I'd normally never say or do. I just feel like I'm not entirely in control of myself. Like no matter how much I try I can only think of dark thoughts and that's not who I am. even my sister who knows almost everything about me has never seen me like this. She said that I was once the most cheerful person ever but now I appear dark and cold she could see it in my eyes she said that something was there it sound's crazy I know but I feel it I do.and I can't explain it. :(