I went out into public without makeup on for the first time in a long time.

Despite having a really bad mental health day I ended up leaving my apartment. I did not want to leave for many reasons but a bottle of Jack sounded good. I also needed to replenish my cigarette stash. I ended up throwing sunglasses on and a hat to brave the store.

I felt like everyone was staring at me. They were probably not even looking at me but in my mind they were. I felt out of my element and it seemed everyone around me knew it. I felt my face get red and warm from embarrassment or perhaps anxiety. I just wanted to leave.

I am aware of how ridiculous this sounds but I truly felt uncomfortable.